14.6.14
i could be angry at the concert you went without me. or to all those places you travel without me. or those times when i needed you and you could never find time to spare. when all i had in mind was to do the whole world with you. i could be angry for years. even after saying nothing changes. but im letting it all go. im choosing to believe that; At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
its not about feeling angry anymore. its about reminiscing and looking back at the past; smiling that it happened. i'll keep praying that it will happen all over again like last time. but never anymore will i initiate.
lots of love, nadiah
30.5.14
Hoping is so much better than knowing that you will never be there in my time of need. You'll never be there for anything. And waiting for you to be there is like waiting for rain in this drought. Hopeless and disappointing. if you were never there for my times i dont think u deserve a part in my happy times anymore.
Ps: let me forget all the times I been there going through your part of difficulty.
For i do not want a feeling a claim in my heart. Amin. :)
6.4.14
2014. i started you with a brand new light. with new hopes and dreams. new goals to be a better person. all in the name of the afterlife. i fought all the doubts i had about myself and decided to at least give myself a chance. i was determined, that with this chance i am going to be a better person. a better person who would look back and learn from the past and never to repeat it again.
shaykh abdul jabbar "i asked allah to protect me from my enemies and i started losing my friends"
this is deep and it means alot to me. all i can say is allah has better instored for me. if you cant handle me at my worst you definitely do not deserve my best. alhamdulillah allah has closed my heart to whats not meant to be and open it to what i have always been overlooking. no amount of alhamdulillah can express me feeling grateful.
i have had families and friends with awkward reaction. some just refuse to talk to me. some talk behind me.
i have no control. but all i can say is alhamdulillah and thank you to those who accepted me for what i am. ill keep you in my prayers day and night always and forever.
'the word love in the quran, appears in over 90 places. but interestingly, it doesnt define the word love, but speaks about the very first consequences of love; that is commitment. islam talks about commitment, if you truly love something or someone you commit. if you do not, then your claim of real love is not real at all.'
i can go on and on about my love life. it may aspire you or just make you sick in the stomach. this life on earth, i've met a couple of wrong ones, a couple that just didn't work out and a couple that should have never crossed my path. thankfully 5000 million years ago when the skies met the seas, allah wrote your name next to mine. im beyond thankful that you're the current one, the future one, the afterlife one. you're the one and only; ahmad rifa'ie. kite sentiasa merancangkan, tetapi allah sahaja yang menentukan. insyallah diberkati dunia and akhirat.
but this journey hasnt always been pretty things. its been a challenge, and he wouldnt bestow me something i cannot overcome. i just need to continously have the faith and believe.
all i can ask is keep me close to friends who loves me for me and is willing to give me a chance and keep me away from those who condemns me without a doubt.
blood with always be thicker than water. i treasure all my moments we had. i met you when i a violent age of 17. now i'm 24. these 7 years you have not only been my best friend i considered you as family. i hope you'll always be the same kind, loving and patient friend i first sat beside in computer lab. you have been an inspiration and believe it or not i've always secretly looked up to you. because you showed me that no matter how little you own in life it was ok. if you grew up with no one by your side it was still ok. and that if people around you threw shit at you it was ok to give them flowers. i never had the courage to tell you all this, but i look up to the person you were back then faezah adam. and alhamdulillah i met you.
now, all i can ask for is ya rabb don't put me back into what you once took me out from.
ya rabb keep my heart safe with you.
18.2.14
Ya allah. Engkau telah melemparkan kesusahan dan dugaan atas hambamu ini. Permudahkan lah beban aku ini aku mohon pertunjuk, kesedaran and kesabaran. I miss my bestfriend at the moment when I'm in need the most.
12.2.14
It was non stop ringing of call bells. Patients relatives coming in and out intruding my work - peace. Adding on changes after changes. Gw-ed 4 patients to everywhere in the world. I forgot one bloody heater for a darn humidifier. And I got this "you as a adv dip train I expect more from u. We are all busy. But work has to finish." I seriously hate u from the bottom of my heart. I try to do my best in hd. But today was just beyond my capabilities. Why is it ok if other people pass unfinished business over to the next shift but not me. This is very unfair. Why is ok if I clear other people's mess but when I pass over and make one bloody mistake I become the worst staff ever.
29.1.14
I don't usually cry at work. I guess I was just sick, tired and overwhelmed. And I lost it. Ya allah. Please protect my heart.
28.1.14
Many of my thoughts are hanging on a thin string of line. Sometimes I think it would be strong enough to hold the weight. Other times I feel like it would just snap. I don't want to sound offensive or hurtful. And I apologise if I do. I wish I could find a friend. Who actually sticks around for the better. One day I'll meet a friend who can share close couples moments with me and rifaie. Then life will never be the same again. Insyaallah. For now, my family comes first. Nothing above them. No more solving or poking into other people's business. For no one will be there for me when I need help. I look forward to all my day offs . For now, that's the case.
20.1.14
I was having the longest moment of good times with my mother and sister. I wondered why god took that all awat from me .
21.12.13
Im facing a life crisis right at this moment of my life. A major life crisis nothing is going right both a home and at work . Im just losing my mind mad. Im wishing i was at avenge sevenfold concert or eating piping hot san curros by bondi wind so strong drowning my hair in my hot chocolate. I want to get away so badly. Now before you jump to conclusion, im not running away like a scady cat. I just need to rest my mind come back and attempt to fix it all again. I could list down a things that has been going on at home and at work . And it just wouldnt end. But then again god wouldnt give me something i clouldnt handle. But god knows im cracking for the solution. Take the time to listen. Take the time to be there. Because it seems like im being buried alive while u all of you were freeding on whats yours and whats not.
9.12.13
How we got into this mess, is it God's test? Someone help us 'cause we're doing our bestTrying to make things work, but, man, these times are hard -the script 2013; you have been the hardest year for me. Seperti jatuh ditimpa tangga. Continous sacrifies continous struggles and continous hardship. I cant wait to be done with you. Im on the verge of giving up already.
25.11.13
Today is the 25th of november. Today marks the first day of my 'bayar-balik' day out of my 730days of debts. I hope for a positive journey that will last me till the end. Another of my phase of life just ended. My next phase just started. Bismillah. Ya rabb; please bless me with all the strength and determination to complete the next two years of my crazy mad life. Ps : cant wait to see my mama the only makcik tudung sitting in the crowd of english people. Including my whole family and you; hubs.
20.11.13
I miss spoiling myself silly.
Ya allah peliharalah hatiku ini. Aku mohon.
15.11.13
When you always make me realise.
3.11.13
I'm bad, and that's good. I will never be good, and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be then me. everyone has just got something to say. you know what i can't keep up with you, and one thing's for sure. i can't be like you or how u want me to be. ill never be better than you and that's just it. been putting up with so much that brings me down. don't know if i can hold on any longer. how i feel does it matter anymore.
29.10.13
Can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel its not bright but its there. Ill finish my course in exactly 25 more days. Quiet moments to myself just got me thinking. With whatever I went through diploma, I never thought I could actually cope with my advance course and with that upon hearing news, that ill be going back from where I came from just made my entire heart feel so heavy. But if this is my faith, if this is what is written for me then I willingly and wholeheartedly accept it I wanted a new chance at a whole brand new life. But if this is it I pray I will come out of it alive. Im really scared of what they will expect out of me. But ill just take it one step at a time. Never been so excited and sad at the same time. Bestfriend been posting our videos. Oh when was the last time. I miss all my trip with bestfriend. Most importantly I miss you.
24.10.13
Attachment you are draining my brain to my wits end. Had enough of human anatomy pharmaco ecg abg and health assestment. Just two more week. I really need a break
20.10.13
Yes. Allah knows. Allah know i am tired. Allah knows it is difficult for me. Allah knows im squeezing my last drop of energy. But i must also know that allah would never place me in a situation that i cannot handle. Wish i always need to remind myself; constantly.
5.10.13
17 november 2013. ill turn three. looking back, i couldn't be more than happier at where i am in life right now. im pursuing something ive always wanted to become. im graduating in about 7 weeks. one more paper, and 6 weeks of clinical. and i completed one more of the phases in my life. i couldn't be more proud of myself. no supp, 100% attendance, staying awake to finish up my assignments and study. im definitely not like before. to whoever who never believed in me, im still going strong. my official ceremony will be next year april. i just couldnt ask for more. thank you Allah for everything. and thank you hubz for staying by my side constantly to support me. its gonna be the end of '13. so much has happened. ive got so much in mind for my new year resolution.
ps i miss blogging.
pss i miss running for a cx713; i missed you; wherever whenever.
27.12.12
26.11.12
Confined into this tiny space thinking im just not good enough . I must agree that im very easily affected by peoples words . Cant they just learn to be polite ? Or did the evolution of puberty rob them of basic courtesy . I need to stay away from all these negative vibe coz its like a rapid disease that sucks the daylights out of your soul . Im very thankful for having a very supportive boyfriend . I could not ask for more and i love him to death.
8.7.12
We are always looking for ways to ease the pain. Sometimes we ease the pain by making the best of what we have, sometimes its by losing ourselves in the moment and sometimes all we need to do to ease the pain is ... Call a simple truce.. Its not always easy to speak your mind sometimes you have to be forced to do it. Sometimes, its better to just keep things to yourself play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So i shut my mouth, keep my secret and find other ways to keep myself happy ..
4.7.12
I hope one day you will go down on your knees and drop a tear or two thanking me feeling grateful for the sacrifies ive made . then u would say that you are the luckiest man to have me in your life . At the same time i should not have high hopes
2.7.12
On top of the world i want. Not just how u got something from someone and the rest does not even matter. Thats how i feel .
1.7.12
When you find their fault when u belittle when u pick a fight day after day . You just feel like you lost all hope . You feel like u lost all love . Please let me survive. Not to live but to at least pull through. Tmrw is another battle
30.6.12
Head over heels? I wish you were.
29.6.12
Its been the third day. Since i had a proper meet up with him. I miss him so much . I wish this counting would stop.
26.6.12
Our intentions are always pure well at least mine is . It's how u you would interpret it.we always want to do what is right, but we also have to push boundaries. So we're in danger of taking things to far. Well at least I knew I went far enough for you. So we do things, things that we should have left it alone. We have all heard the warnings and we have ignored them. We push our luck. We roll the dice. We play with fire. It's human nature. When we are told not to touch something, we usually do, even if we know better. Maybe because deep down inside we are just asking for trouble. To you: please don't give me nonsense about how absence makes the heart grow fonder. You can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted advisors. But in the end, the decision is always yours and yours alone. And when it's time to act and you're all alone with your back against the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. The one telling you what you already knew (and keep ignoring) the one that's almost always right. I've got too many pictures to put up ..where do I start??
20.5.12
When in life , you realise that no one will stand up to fight for you be it your loves ones. No one ever asks me what it feels like to be me .
11.4.12
today is the 11.4
so many days, months passed by.
i cant wait for the 5th..
19.2.12
When nobody hears you, even your opinions or how you feel do not matter.
Enough said
3.1.12
to a whole brand new year. so long to all the horrible dramas. living life to the fullest. embracing to every new priceless experience. not getting angry to easily. not letting the slightest thing affect me. be very very happy. and bring it on, 365 ;)
“Verily, anger corrupts the matter just as vinegar spoils honey."[At-Tabarani, Al-Mu’jam Al-Kabeer, Number 16385, Hasan]
i could be angry at the concert you went without me. or to all those places you travel without me. or those times when i needed you and you could never find time to spare. when all i had in mind was to do the whole world with you. i could be angry for years. even after saying nothing changes. but im letting it all go. im choosing to believe that; At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.
its not about feeling angry anymore. its about reminiscing and looking back at the past; smiling that it happened. i'll keep praying that it will happen all over again like last time. but never anymore will i initiate.
lots of love, nadiah
30.5.14
Hoping is so much better than knowing that you will never be there in my time of need. You'll never be there for anything. And waiting for you to be there is like waiting for rain in this drought. Hopeless and disappointing. if you were never there for my times i dont think u deserve a part in my happy times anymore.
Ps: let me forget all the times I been there going through your part of difficulty.
For i do not want a feeling a claim in my heart. Amin. :)
6.4.14
shaykh abdul jabbar "i asked allah to protect me from my enemies and i started losing my friends"
this is deep and it means alot to me. all i can say is allah has better instored for me. if you cant handle me at my worst you definitely do not deserve my best. alhamdulillah allah has closed my heart to whats not meant to be and open it to what i have always been overlooking. no amount of alhamdulillah can express me feeling grateful.
i have had families and friends with awkward reaction. some just refuse to talk to me. some talk behind me.
i have no control. but all i can say is alhamdulillah and thank you to those who accepted me for what i am. ill keep you in my prayers day and night always and forever.
'the word love in the quran, appears in over 90 places. but interestingly, it doesnt define the word love, but speaks about the very first consequences of love; that is commitment. islam talks about commitment, if you truly love something or someone you commit. if you do not, then your claim of real love is not real at all.'
i can go on and on about my love life. it may aspire you or just make you sick in the stomach. this life on earth, i've met a couple of wrong ones, a couple that just didn't work out and a couple that should have never crossed my path. thankfully 5000 million years ago when the skies met the seas, allah wrote your name next to mine. im beyond thankful that you're the current one, the future one, the afterlife one. you're the one and only; ahmad rifa'ie. kite sentiasa merancangkan, tetapi allah sahaja yang menentukan. insyallah diberkati dunia and akhirat.
but this journey hasnt always been pretty things. its been a challenge, and he wouldnt bestow me something i cannot overcome. i just need to continously have the faith and believe.
all i can ask is keep me close to friends who loves me for me and is willing to give me a chance and keep me away from those who condemns me without a doubt.
blood with always be thicker than water. i treasure all my moments we had. i met you when i a violent age of 17. now i'm 24. these 7 years you have not only been my best friend i considered you as family. i hope you'll always be the same kind, loving and patient friend i first sat beside in computer lab. you have been an inspiration and believe it or not i've always secretly looked up to you. because you showed me that no matter how little you own in life it was ok. if you grew up with no one by your side it was still ok. and that if people around you threw shit at you it was ok to give them flowers. i never had the courage to tell you all this, but i look up to the person you were back then faezah adam. and alhamdulillah i met you.
now, all i can ask for is ya rabb don't put me back into what you once took me out from.
ya rabb keep my heart safe with you.
18.2.14
Ya allah. Engkau telah melemparkan kesusahan dan dugaan atas hambamu ini. Permudahkan lah beban aku ini aku mohon pertunjuk, kesedaran and kesabaran. I miss my bestfriend at the moment when I'm in need the most.
12.2.14
It was non stop ringing of call bells. Patients relatives coming in and out intruding my work - peace. Adding on changes after changes. Gw-ed 4 patients to everywhere in the world. I forgot one bloody heater for a darn humidifier. And I got this "you as a adv dip train I expect more from u. We are all busy. But work has to finish." I seriously hate u from the bottom of my heart. I try to do my best in hd. But today was just beyond my capabilities. Why is it ok if other people pass unfinished business over to the next shift but not me. This is very unfair. Why is ok if I clear other people's mess but when I pass over and make one bloody mistake I become the worst staff ever.
29.1.14
I don't usually cry at work. I guess I was just sick, tired and overwhelmed. And I lost it. Ya allah. Please protect my heart.
28.1.14
Many of my thoughts are hanging on a thin string of line. Sometimes I think it would be strong enough to hold the weight. Other times I feel like it would just snap. I don't want to sound offensive or hurtful. And I apologise if I do. I wish I could find a friend. Who actually sticks around for the better. One day I'll meet a friend who can share close couples moments with me and rifaie. Then life will never be the same again. Insyaallah. For now, my family comes first. Nothing above them. No more solving or poking into other people's business. For no one will be there for me when I need help. I look forward to all my day offs . For now, that's the case.
20.1.14
I was having the longest moment of good times with my mother and sister. I wondered why god took that all awat from me .
21.12.13
Im facing a life crisis right at this moment of my life. A major life crisis nothing is going right both a home and at work . Im just losing my mind mad. Im wishing i was at avenge sevenfold concert or eating piping hot san curros by bondi wind so strong drowning my hair in my hot chocolate. I want to get away so badly. Now before you jump to conclusion, im not running away like a scady cat. I just need to rest my mind come back and attempt to fix it all again. I could list down a things that has been going on at home and at work . And it just wouldnt end. But then again god wouldnt give me something i clouldnt handle. But god knows im cracking for the solution. Take the time to listen. Take the time to be there. Because it seems like im being buried alive while u all of you were freeding on whats yours and whats not.
9.12.13
How we got into this mess, is it God's test? Someone help us 'cause we're doing our bestTrying to make things work, but, man, these times are hard -the script 2013; you have been the hardest year for me. Seperti jatuh ditimpa tangga. Continous sacrifies continous struggles and continous hardship. I cant wait to be done with you. Im on the verge of giving up already.
25.11.13
Today is the 25th of november. Today marks the first day of my 'bayar-balik' day out of my 730days of debts. I hope for a positive journey that will last me till the end. Another of my phase of life just ended. My next phase just started. Bismillah. Ya rabb; please bless me with all the strength and determination to complete the next two years of my crazy mad life. Ps : cant wait to see my mama the only makcik tudung sitting in the crowd of english people. Including my whole family and you; hubs.
20.11.13
I miss spoiling myself silly.
Ya allah peliharalah hatiku ini. Aku mohon.
15.11.13
When you always make me realise.
3.11.13
I'm bad, and that's good. I will never be good, and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be then me. everyone has just got something to say. you know what i can't keep up with you, and one thing's for sure. i can't be like you or how u want me to be. ill never be better than you and that's just it. been putting up with so much that brings me down. don't know if i can hold on any longer. how i feel does it matter anymore.
29.10.13
Can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel its not bright but its there. Ill finish my course in exactly 25 more days. Quiet moments to myself just got me thinking. With whatever I went through diploma, I never thought I could actually cope with my advance course and with that upon hearing news, that ill be going back from where I came from just made my entire heart feel so heavy. But if this is my faith, if this is what is written for me then I willingly and wholeheartedly accept it I wanted a new chance at a whole brand new life. But if this is it I pray I will come out of it alive. Im really scared of what they will expect out of me. But ill just take it one step at a time. Never been so excited and sad at the same time. Bestfriend been posting our videos. Oh when was the last time. I miss all my trip with bestfriend. Most importantly I miss you.
24.10.13
Attachment you are draining my brain to my wits end. Had enough of human anatomy pharmaco ecg abg and health assestment. Just two more week. I really need a break
20.10.13
Yes. Allah knows. Allah know i am tired. Allah knows it is difficult for me. Allah knows im squeezing my last drop of energy. But i must also know that allah would never place me in a situation that i cannot handle. Wish i always need to remind myself; constantly.
5.10.13
17 november 2013. ill turn three. looking back, i couldn't be more than happier at where i am in life right now. im pursuing something ive always wanted to become. im graduating in about 7 weeks. one more paper, and 6 weeks of clinical. and i completed one more of the phases in my life. i couldn't be more proud of myself. no supp, 100% attendance, staying awake to finish up my assignments and study. im definitely not like before. to whoever who never believed in me, im still going strong. my official ceremony will be next year april. i just couldnt ask for more. thank you Allah for everything. and thank you hubz for staying by my side constantly to support me. its gonna be the end of '13. so much has happened. ive got so much in mind for my new year resolution.
ps i miss blogging.
pss i miss running for a cx713; i missed you; wherever whenever.
27.12.12
its
the 26 december 2012. 5 more days to 2013 and im dying to blog about
how my 2012 went. two days ago i got the honour to watch wreck- it ralph
and the lat few lines narrated by ralph basically summarised my entire
2012. which went like this," I'm bad, and that's good. I will never be
good, and that's not bad. There's no one I'd rather be then me. Because
if that little kid likes me, how bad can I be?" Pictures to sum it all.الحمد لله for letting me
survive another year.
through life i will meet one person who is unlikely any other. i could talk to this person for hours and never get bored. i could tell him things and he won't judge me. he is my soul mate, my best friend and i'm never letting go. i love you from the bottom of my apex.
thank you for being in my life .
till death do us part.
till death do us part.
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| hubz 25th senibong jb |
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| dates |
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| my eye candy |
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| subway trips to jb |
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| legoland jb |
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There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.dear best friend, thank you for being there for me always.TO MORE TRIPS AROUND THE WORLD. FRIENDS TILL WE'RE GREY |
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| the love/s of my life |
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| when hasnah got married and not too long shaffa gave birth to a baby boy but sadly i don't have a picture |
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| my 22ndbday lunch (i'll never forget the birthday surprise hubz did for me with family) video too big too upload |
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i couldn't ask for moreFriendship isn't about whom you have known the longest... It's about who came, and never left your side... |
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| wan choi and bestfriend in phuket |
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| bestfriend 23rd |
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| more 0702 reunion |
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| a7x (when the both of you left) |
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| may we miss another cx 713hehehe |
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| allah send me more family, i couldn't ask for more الحمد لله |
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| basirah and hidayah |
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| phuket baby |
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| mere dil haaaaai |
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| mom and dad syawal; aidil adha don't stop being awesome |
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| more raya madness #family #blood # all i've got |
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| new addition grandfather 80th birthday |
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| sawadeeeeekaaaaaap bangkok uploading pictures in progress |
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| marcus birthday |
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| blue mountains; the three sisters sydney australia |
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| when allah blessed me with more sisters :) الحمد لله |
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| 0702 reunion |
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| hamizah wedding mak and abah بسم الله 2013. |
26.11.12
Confined into this tiny space thinking im just not good enough . I must agree that im very easily affected by peoples words . Cant they just learn to be polite ? Or did the evolution of puberty rob them of basic courtesy . I need to stay away from all these negative vibe coz its like a rapid disease that sucks the daylights out of your soul . Im very thankful for having a very supportive boyfriend . I could not ask for more and i love him to death.
8.7.12
We are always looking for ways to ease the pain. Sometimes we ease the pain by making the best of what we have, sometimes its by losing ourselves in the moment and sometimes all we need to do to ease the pain is ... Call a simple truce.. Its not always easy to speak your mind sometimes you have to be forced to do it. Sometimes, its better to just keep things to yourself play dumb, even when your whole body is aching to come clean. So i shut my mouth, keep my secret and find other ways to keep myself happy ..
4.7.12
I hope one day you will go down on your knees and drop a tear or two thanking me feeling grateful for the sacrifies ive made . then u would say that you are the luckiest man to have me in your life . At the same time i should not have high hopes
2.7.12
On top of the world i want. Not just how u got something from someone and the rest does not even matter. Thats how i feel .
1.7.12
When you find their fault when u belittle when u pick a fight day after day . You just feel like you lost all hope . You feel like u lost all love . Please let me survive. Not to live but to at least pull through. Tmrw is another battle
30.6.12
Head over heels? I wish you were.
29.6.12
Its been the third day. Since i had a proper meet up with him. I miss him so much . I wish this counting would stop.
26.6.12
Our intentions are always pure well at least mine is . It's how u you would interpret it.we always want to do what is right, but we also have to push boundaries. So we're in danger of taking things to far. Well at least I knew I went far enough for you. So we do things, things that we should have left it alone. We have all heard the warnings and we have ignored them. We push our luck. We roll the dice. We play with fire. It's human nature. When we are told not to touch something, we usually do, even if we know better. Maybe because deep down inside we are just asking for trouble. To you: please don't give me nonsense about how absence makes the heart grow fonder. You can seek the advice of others, surround yourself with trusted advisors. But in the end, the decision is always yours and yours alone. And when it's time to act and you're all alone with your back against the wall, the only voice that matters is the one in your head. The one telling you what you already knew (and keep ignoring) the one that's almost always right. I've got too many pictures to put up ..where do I start??
20.5.12
When in life , you realise that no one will stand up to fight for you be it your loves ones. No one ever asks me what it feels like to be me .
11.4.12
today is the 11.4
so many days, months passed by.
i cant wait for the 5th..
19.2.12
When nobody hears you, even your opinions or how you feel do not matter.
Enough said
3.1.12
sometime ago i lost myself. completely.
got out and got over a past relationship. adapted to a whole new environment. and this is where i am.
can never thank god enough for him; my man <3
i've realize that my blog has been photo-less for sometime now. will sum up my 2011 with a couple of pictures. teeeeheeee
thank god for my promotion to executive chief of the pantry. haha no ah.
but honestly thank god. and never once i regretted my decision in sgh.
celebrating his sweet 16
the second love of my life
in the changing room
classy birthday dinner
prps reunion
ice-skating and kite flying.
sometimes i wonder how they were doing. all i can do is pray to god for their well being.
i miss you girls and 0702.
